I am collateral damage
Flowers shrink when am close
Butterflies fly away from me
I hurt the people I love
I pity the people that care for me
I am a sadist and I don’t like subjects that bend low
I’m collateral damage
If karma is real the punishment I deserve is worse than death
I am a destroyer of everything
I am numb I am dumb
I am a killer I am guilty
I’m collateral damage
Regrets only makes me worse
Remorse is in the air I breathe
I am the worse nightmare
I am regrets to those attached to me
I am the devils dream come true
I’m collateral damage
I’m hurt every time life gives me another chance
Every blessings hurts as worse as a curse would
I love hate and hate love
Loving me is hurting me and yourself
I’m collateral damage
Every moment feels like the last moment
Death seems an inche away
I can see the signs all over
All I want is to have a good ending
I want to have a legacy
Can anyone say am a good person
I’m collateral damage

43 responses to “My Suicide Note by Izonya”
beautiful poem – thank you for sharing 🙏
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Thank you for the insight
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Guten Tag Herr Izonya.
Schreiben Sie
so leben Sie
die Blumen blühen
Schmetterlinge fliegen
Niemand kann behaupten er hätte nie jemand anderen verletzt
Ich habe Mitleid mit den Menschen, die sich nicht um ihre eigenen Angelegenheiten kümmern
Der Sadist muss sich mit sich selbst zurecht kommen
Der Tod wartet uns allen
Auch dem Heiligen und dem Zerstörer von allem
Dummheit ist lehr- und lernbar
Niemand ist ohne Schuld
Ich bedaure Sie nicht
Schuld und Sühne atmen wir alle
Wir haben alle unseren eigenen Albtraum
Wir sind alle einsam und allein
Dem Widersacher ist niemand gewachsen
Der Traum kennt weder das Böse noch das Gute
Das Leben wirft uns im Blutschrei auf die Erde und nimmt uns wieder zurück
Den Segen meint man sich zu allem sich selbst
Die Liebe und der Hass sind der Begriffe Schwester und Bruder
Der Erfahrung sind beide wie man sie nimmt
Jeder Moment ist nur Moment
Der Tod wartet uns seit der Geburt
Das Ende, so denke ich, wird fürchterlich sein
Ein jeder ist gut und schlecht, beides zusammen
Unsere Spuren werden im Sand der Geschichte verwehen
Herzliche Grüße
Hans Gamma
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Good afternoon Mr. Izonya.
You write
that’s how you live
the flowers are blooming
Butterflies fly
Nobody can say they never hurt anyone else
I feel sorry for people who don’t mind their own business
The sadist has to come to terms with himself
Death awaits us all
Also to the saint and the destroyer of everything
Stupidity can be taught and learned
Nobody is without guilt
I am not sorry for you
We all breathe guilt and atonement
We all have our own nightmare
We are all lonely and alone
Nobody is equal to the adversary
The dream knows neither the bad nor the good
Life throws us on the earth in a cry of blood and takes us back again
One means the blessing for everything to oneself
Love and hate are the concepts of sister and brother
Experience is both how to take it
Every moment is just a moment
Death has been waiting for us since birth
The end, I think, will be terrible
Everyone is good and bad, both together
Our traces will be blown in the sands of history
Best regards
Hans Gamma
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Thanks Hans for that powerful reply ,it’s more inspiring than the original post am inspired
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Guten Tag Mariana, guten Tag Herr izonya.
Herzlichen Dank für die Antwort, ich kann Ihrem Weltbild, Herr izonya, Ihrer Poesie nicht Folge leisten.
Herzliche Grüße
Hans Gamma
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Guten tag
Thank you so much
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Lovely.
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Thank you 😍
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Will do.
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love and hate
kismet is fate
karma ya aura
feel it then
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Thank you. I love your poetic replies. You may please follow the poet for more
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Die Wirkung der Tat
zeichnet sich in meiner Seele ab
die Folge davon
die ich zu tragen habe
das Leben ist ein Geschenk
dem Tod kann
niemand entrinnen, entgehen
das fühlen ist das eine
das andere das empfinden
noch dazu das weitere, das denken
die Ahnung davon
dass es mehr als das Schicksal
in all ihrer Widersprüchlichkeit
von Stimmungen und Gefühlen gibt
die, die Rechtfertigung
über die eigene Haltung zu sich
zu anderen Menschen
der Welt das eigene Urteil
über böse und gut
über sich selbst erfordert
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mit uns. vie geths. jeden tag. my german is limited herr sir. ty
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😂😂
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Guten Tag.
Sie sind mit Ihren Antworten sehr schlagfertig. Darauf habe ich Ihnen eine subjektive Antwort, aus dem Moment heraus gegeben. Ich habe keinen Anspruch darauf, irgend eine Wahrheit zu besitzen.
Wer seinen Gott sich hat, und sein Schicksal für sich lesen kann, vor dem kann ich mich mit meiner Art und Weise nicht rechtfertigen.
Ich wünsche Ihnen das Allerbeste.
Ich grüße Sie freundlich
Hans Gamma
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◇ – Diamond Hard – ◇
◇ If YOU!!! ARE Serious à là Niké Just Do It and Give another Soul a Chance to 3DLive in a Meat Sack; otherwise, please Stop Feeling ALL so Sorry for YOURSELF!!! and Get On With YOUR!!! Job
◇ – Diamond Hard – ◇
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Heyy Hard
Yeah sure. Thank you for the piece of advice. You might want to know that the beauty of art is about not being limited. No topic or subject should be avoided that’s what I love about myself, I can explore any topic without necessary meaning it’s what I am going through.
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❣
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Thanks
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Reblogged this on By the Mighty Mumford and commented:
COLATERAL DAMAGED BY WHAT OR WHOM?
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The persona himself is collateral damage
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Thank you Jonathan for the reblog
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AH! YES—MAKES MORE SENSE! 😀
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A bit worrying, but powerful.
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Thank you
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Shook me!
You have a wonderful way with words…
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Thanks @TheVersifier9
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Walk in nature, whenever you feel low. Watch my nature video in youtube….thotaramani.youtube
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Great idea! And shopping too lol😂😂
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Your writing is powerful and your poem makes my heart hurt. Writing is such an incredible expressive tool and you do this very well. My care to you and wishes for a good holiday💗.
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Wow Thank you so much please don’t be hurt
Merry Christmas and happy new year
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😌
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💗Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you too. I look very forward to reading more of your beautiful work. 💗
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Merry Christmas and happy new year dear
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💗💗
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Today is a day to celebrate the arrival of Hope. May it touch your life today and always.
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Thank you for the kind encouragement. Merry Christmas 💖
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I found this poem tragic. It claims to be the statement of a sadist. And there are such individuals. However, it appears to me written from the perspective of a profoundly abused individual (“collateral damage”) who no longer believes s/he has value.
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Thanks Anna. The poet said he’s voicing out the thoughts of others, so I respected that.
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This eerily beautiful and scary to fathom. Thank you for sharing. 😢
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You’re welcome
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